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Question time: If you are working in a job, any job really, and co-workers don't like you, does your intuition tell you that you aren't in the right place? Do you desperately hang on and wait for things to settle or do you give up? Even after a year when things have just have not worked out? 
Awwww I just don't know the answer to that. I felt like I was in the right place, right time, right job, but now I have come to realize that this may not be the case. It's just awful to think I'd have wasted the last two years of my life in a job that was not meant for me after all. There are some great moments and awesome people I have met along the way, but that don't change the fact that The Job sucks right now!
I need opiates.
There have been threats all along- latest one is that bullying is not tolerated and that next step is personnel department. Ok. If that's the case, then it's the right time to expose the bloody nutcase. There is plenty of ammunition and 10 employees vs. culprit must have some effect.

Employee engagement surveys have never really reached those super high targets, and this time is not any different. In the past I've really tried to be considerate and kind of ignore some stuff, everything in moderation, but this time it is for real. I guess recent actions speak for themselves... latest threat to take "us" to personnel is really the last straw.  
Answer to the question above is that you gracefully step down, retreat into a corner, realize that it you and the job weren't the right match. More embarrassing, if you stay, and someone else is employed to take over. LOOOOOL. Think about that and just take a hike. 

 
 
 

Microscopic manager

"We have invested in you", says the boss.
"Are you not happy here? Why do you want to leave?"

Have I not invested my time and contributed my time and skills during the time I have been employed here? What a stuuuuuuupid question.
Am I happy? No. Yes. There are days when I am happier, but those days are not here that often anymore. Employee satisfaction survey show decline in many areas. There has been increase in employee dissatisfaction in many areas, not just mine.
I feel empty and kind of sad, on a roller-coaster ride. No matter how engaged I feel today, it could be another story tomorrow. Yeah. What's the root cause of all this? ONE micro-manager. Just one is all it takes and all good work goes down the drain. What that creates in turn is an unmotivated and unenthusiastic employee, who is weighing options.
Aww I feel sick and depressed thinking about this. I start wishing for common cold that would keep my out of boss' lair. I weigh my options and wonder what future will bring. I could crawl into a small space and stay there for some time. Then once I've had enough of small spaces I could return to daylight and think again. Emptiness, disappointment, love, hope, happiness, anxiety, anger, forgiveness. There is always some hope left, grab it and go.

Who invented the word micromanager? Someone should do microscopic exam and see if there is any activity in micromanagers' brain?

After eventful days such as these ("We have invested in you."), that tiny flicker of hope is enough to carry on. Words can hurt, they can leave lasting impression, but they did not kill me. Not now, not ever.